Saturday, March 22, 2014
Feeling Overwhelmed with Cooper's HCM Illness-But Moving Forward All the Same
Whenever Myrna's been very sick, everything stops and I refocus on her immediate needs. Nothing seems as important as making sure she gets better. It was more so when we found out Cooper was sick with HCM. Even with our experience, it felt overwhelming. It was this way when Myrna was first sick but it wasn't a feeling I had felt in a very long time-that certain sense of nothing was important, nothing else needed to be taken care of, nothing else mattered, plans were halted, as if per Auden "stop all the clocks, cut off the telephones." I was very surprised that a sense of being lost-despite our experience-could return. And yet, the experience with Myrna has helped to keep me focused on his needs and I'm not overwhelmed with what he needs: his meds-same as Myrna's; med schedule-a bit erratic at first but will soon settle into a routine; and watching his breathing, and his recovery.